gotta get my groove back

I've been working from home for the last 8 months now. Had to do something with the little free time I had. So became a recruitment consultant doing HR for the first time in my life. About 3 weeks back I started another job. A marcom job for an upcoming website, where I am required to build the brand and get sponsorships. Ever since then I have been battling with which job to continue. The first one paid me fixed + variable, the second one paid me by the hour. Needless to say I was spending more time hunting for the right people. It only made sense to continue with the second one.
BUT
yes the big but, Its tough when you need to get in touch with the CEO's, MD's and the like to promote and build the brand. I've been in the online advertising industry and I know the approach was wrong. This is not the way to go ahead. But they had other ideas. So till they come around this is the way to go. Not easy. Because at the end of the day you are not performing if you cannot come up with results either a yes or a no. Which is so darn difficult to get, since you just cant get in touch with these guys.

And now I'm spending all my time doing work and no time to check mails or blog :( and the stress! The less said about it the better. I'm irritable, cranky and impatient all the time. My diet and exercises have gone for a toss. As it is I'm sleep deprived, it increased more and now, I got so dizzy that I couldn't even sit let alone stand.

Its not worth it. I know I need the money but my daughter needs me more. she needs me around. I don't know how other women do it. Handling 2 jobs at the same time. I just do not have it in me. Gonna quit the second one. And I so badly want to blog. I have like these zillion posts in my head but no time to write it down or blog. Sitting with my laptop to blog and all i think about is work, which deadline I have yet to meet.

What a wakeup call.